So, I reading the scriptural account of Dylan and Goliath on the old Family Blog when I noticed there was a small event that was left out. Whilst attending said event, about a week after my surgery, my leg started to feel cramped sitting in the bleachers. I decided I would go out to sit in the hall to stretch out a little bit. I was sure to go out to the commons area where the traffic wasn't as heavy leaving ample room for people to move around me. When what to my wondering eyes should appear, but a little wrestler, not so intelligent as you will hear. (i should write childrens books) So as he's running down the hall, and there's someone walking out in front of me, he decides to follow the Savior's example by taking the path less traveled. That is to say the path that would have need of him jumping over my outstretched leg. But the leap would prove to great as he would plant directly on my raised foot torquing my leg to the inside. I will not repeat the expletive that escaped my lips, but suffice it to say it did not reflect to kindly on his parents. I'm not sure if he heard it, but when he didn't run away, and just looked at me, with as much worry and an expression of apology as one could give without actually saying it, I immediately felt embarrassed for my impatience. I told him not to worry about it, but feel that might not have been enough, because he still had that look of a guilty conscience. As I was writing this experience I'm reminded of something that Heavenly Father taught me not to long ago while I was studying. The following is the note I put in my phone from that day.
The more I read about the atonement the more I recognize the need for forgiveness! The lord stands ready to forgive all men who bring forth fruit for repentance. Wherefore, as he said, we must also be willing to forgive all men their trespasses. As we choose not to forgive, a poison enters our minds and our spirits, that will inevitably breed discontent, anger, enmity towards our fellow man, and then unhappiness, loneliness, and bitterness.
On the other hand as we "frankly" forgive our neighbors, nothing can ensue but appreciation, love, further enlightenment, knowledge and understanding, a greater happiness, and great feelings of peace.
How do we frankly forgive? Certainly not by merely uttering the words. It is through developing our understanding of principally the atonement, but also of our imperfect standing with God, and the therefore shared imperfect standing that our neighbor has with God, and the realization that we will all one day be perfect (whether it's hundreds, thousands, or hundreds of thousands of years out) and if our fellow brother or sister is not to partake in the atonement it is in understanding their loss of possibility, that we will only feel grief for their future state, instead of anger or malice toward their present one.
Thinking of this boy who jumped on my foot, and continued to feel sorrow longer than necessary for such a trifle. helped me if only just a little bit to understand the importance of not only forgiving others, but forgiving ourselves as well.
On a lighter note. I'm making a speedy recovery. My Doc and PT tell me I'm at the top of my class (tell me something I don't know). I started Physical therapy this morning, and my physical therapist told me I was in like the top 1 percent for ACL recovery time. I'm about two weeks out, and he said it looks like it's been at least a month. It was at this time that he told me that there are two patients that he worries about. Those who recover slowly, and those who recover quickly. It was at this moment that I figured it best not tell him about my bowling excursion, and couple of games of lightning that I played the previous week. But don't worry, I've already talked with my friends, and told them that when I try to participate in dodgeball at tonights FHE, they're not to allow it.
I love you all we need to start making some REAL plans as to how we're all going to live near each other when we're older, especially because some of us already are older (Brock, Garrett, and Chelsey). Happy chinese new year!
Kody